Life’s too vulnerable

So today I found out from an old work friend that someone I used to work with has just passed away from some kind of infection while travelling. It was such a shock, and such terrible news. I’m just totally lost for words. It didn’t quite made sent to me when I was at work today but finally it’s hit me. Although I wasn’t close to her, I still get this weird feeling inside me. My brain keeps switching between the time when I was working with her and the hrash reality of her not being around any more. Somehow they just don’t connect.

It’s just so unfair. Same age as me and such a beautiful and lovable girl. It’s not very often that I come across someone as special as her. Someone at work once said she was like a breath of fresh air in the office. And I used to call her my ray of sunshine. And she really was. She had the ability to brighten up anyone’s day. And now she’s gone.

Life is just so vulnerable that it’s scary.

R.I.P. sunshine.

My precious

After months and months of talking about getting a new camera, finally it’s happened!

My precious - a brand new Nikon D60. This would have to be my biggest purchase to date. Hehehe.

Was having a quick play around with different ISO. Even at ISO 800 it still looks pretty good to me!

Ah I think I’m in love…

Diary

I’ve just spent 1.5 hours reading through my diaries from 2-3 years ago. I thought after reading them I’d feel wow I’ve changed so much. But in actual fact, I haven’t really changed as much as I thought I have. The worries and issues I had 2-3 years ago are still the ones I have now. Things that worry me, make me happy, annoy me, worth writing about are still the same. I’m also surprised by how powerful words are, that they can bring back so many memories and so much emotion. I was reading some diary entries I wrote last year, and seriously I got all teary and crap, and I don’t even cry easily! To an extent, I almost felt like I was reliving the past and re-experiencing all the emotions.

So deep… hahahahha!

2 kinds of people

1. People that come into your life for a reason
People come in and out of your life. With some, I believe we cross paths for a reason. Sometimes I find out something new about myself from them; sometimes they bring in fresh views and ideas that I’ve never thought of; sometimes they bring out the best in me. Whatever it is, they always have an impact on me. But these people don’t always stick around and when they’re gone, I’m left to explore more about what I’ve learnt. It’s sad when they aren’t around anymore but still, I’m happy we crossed paths.

2. People that let you down
Seriously, I can’t stand people who make false promises. Why promise anything when you can’t stick to it? I hate being let down and more so I hate feeling like I should expect less or expect nothing from them. I’d much prefer if people just don’t say anything, then at least I can’t be let down or feel disappointed. Small disappointments build up and in the end you have no expectations left. So basically, don’t say sh*t unless you mean it.
** end of venting **

And lastly, just some random photos to end this post with:

March - the birthday month

So here comes the end of March, which also means the end of the birthday month. Even at work, we had at least 1 cake every week. I was totally caked-out by the end of it. So the birthday month started off with Adam’s pimpin’ 21+2 birthday party, filled with champagne, more champagne and even more champagne. Hehehe. The party was great fun and how could it not be when a H2 was involved? It’s been a while since we all got together so it was great to see everyone there. I miss you guys. Another 2 birthdays during this month: Stephen’s and Albert’s. So happy (belated) birthday and I love you both! *mwah*

Other random things I feel like sharing with the world:

• I had meat cupcakes the other day at work and they tasted strangely good! Mmmm meat cakes….
• I think Gordon Ramsay is hilarious.
• I’ve walked across the Harbour Bridge a few times after work from Milsons Point to Wynyard then caught a train back. For the 10 years I’ve been in Australia, I’ve never walked across the bridge until now. I found it’s a really nice way to wind down at the end of the day.
• Something that struck a chord with me lately: “The reason people found it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be” - Marcel Pagnol
• Something that reminds me of where I came from: Michael Wolf’s Photography
• Something that puts a smile on my face: Faces in Places
• Something that gave me the goose bumps:
  
• Something that made me teary:
  

And that is all…

Damn this is random…